Nov 14, 5:04 pm

November 15th, 2011

My only son

Don’t be afraid

You will be ok

I remember your face

When you were born…

- text from Dad

Familiar roads

November 7th, 2011

“You didn’t have to park so far away. I don’t think anyone’s going to be coming out of the house at this hour.”

“Naw, I just stopped the car where I could.”

“So what are you doing here?”

At times, more often than not, I think about stopping by to see how you’re doing. I’d like to think that we could catch up like old friends and part ways amiably. But that’s not what’s going to happen. Nope–you can’t stand the idea of me anymore. Because it only reminds you of what was wrong with us.

Our mistakes are like jagged daggers that are easier to ignore if we just let them hang on our bodies, because the more we tug at them the more our skin breaks.

“I can’t remember how I got here.”

Hunting Season

May 3rd, 2011

Treason is treason
Even if you do it with a smile on your face.
It was her hunting season;
It was a different kind of game this time that we happened to chase.
Clamor it out now.
I’d be a hypocrite if I did just to spite you less.
It’s the pains that will shape how
We determine our worth in this lifetime and the next.

‘Cause we all wish for
magical answers, to be a romancer.
And I’m so damn sure
That I’m not afraid as I was yesterday.

Don’t you make a sound.
Funny, how you think that would make the shot hurt less.
Things are better now;
It took me some time but I can finally disconnect.
We know…
The reasons why we’re tracked and cornered in the end.
She knows…
Of no way to stomach down a friend.

‘Cause we all wish for
magical answers, to be a romancer.
And I’m so damn sure
That I’m not afraid as I was yesterday.

And we were worth so much more
Than the heads that mount above your door.
And secrets are always kept
From yourself so you won’t ever forget.

‘Cause we all wish for
magical answers, to be a romancer.
And I’m so damn sure
That I’m not afraid as I was yesterday.

- 2009

Here, But Never There

December 23rd, 2010

It has been almost over a year now since she had discovered the poltergeist’s presence in her home. By now, the haunting feelings have subsided. She’s grown used to the mail flying off of the dining table and finding her keys again in the usual hiding places. It too has grown fond of the home. Every subtle movement out of the corner of her eye is the spirit moving curtains or making the old wooden dresser groan and crack. After a year, she can seem to completely ignore its antics in an attempt to live a normal life.

It seeks her attention, that spirit, sometimes by flickering candle lights by the bath tub when she is trying to soak the week of work away. Gentle at first, the flames bend and sway rhythmically to a beat no one can hear. She breathes slowly, closing her eyes. All she hears is the faucet drip. The candles grow dim and then brighter, faster and faster. The flames seizure erratically on the wicks as the shadows cast against the walls dance violently — until the candles finally go out, only leaving a snaking trail of white smoke.

“Fucking STOP IT!” she screams with her fists clutching cold, damp hair.

The echo is followed by a sharp silence. The faucet drips. She breathes slowly and opens her eyes. The candles reignite, calm and still as the water where she sits.

Story of My Post-Grad Life

November 22nd, 2010

We regret to inform you that this position has been cancelled

- Some Company

Good thing I’m great with rejection!

My Third Eye’s Blind

November 20th, 2010

I wonder how it’s going to be
When you don’t know me
How’s it going to be
When you’re sure I’m not there
How’s it going to be
When there’s no one there to talk to

But between you and me, I think I’d care how it’s gonna be.

I Fixed My Own Headlights!

February 22nd, 2010

I bought a used 2003 VW Jetta GL last October.  It was a great deal and I love the car, but there were just a couple of things that didn’t sit too well.  The left headlight kept dying and I discovered on my own poking around that the wiring to the headlamp socket was completely burnt.  It still worked most of the time though so I didn’t give too much thought to it.

Hosted by imgur.com

Hosted by imgur.com

Finally, when I took a trip north to the Bay Area with my car, the headlight gave out for good.  I kicked it and bumped it like I usually had, but it wasn’t doing any good this time.

Well, the past couple of days, I was doing some research and found this nice little How-To on taking apart the headlight assembly on my car.  I finally got the balls to take on this project and spent a good part of Sunday night dismantling the front-end of my car.  Most of the time I was yanking out my bumper and trying to unscrew the most unreachable screws in the world.

When I finally got to the headlight itself, I realized I needed to solder the new socket’s wires to these pins that connect to the wiring harness of the car because the old wires were burnt and useless.  I wish I could have documented this better and staple it to my resume from now on.  Look how resourceful I am!

Hosted by imgur.com

Putting everything back together was so satisfying.  I felt like I just accomplished the greatest task imaginable.  What could have been a $100 job with parts and labor at a mechanic shop, just cost me $5.50 and about 3 hours.

Hosted by imgur.com

I am man.

To See and Hear from the Heart

July 22nd, 2009

There is this man who has the ability to see things that we can only perceive by imagination.  He sees the gifts left by muses.  Pains, joys, anger, thoughts provoked and thoughts repressed.  Vividly they reside in paintings and music as if they were strewn across the canvas and mixed in roughly with the oils or sewn into the lyrics and sheet music to carry the sound waves across the otherwise empty halls of which they call their resonant road.

He says, “To see and hear from the heart is to conjure empathy from one’s mind.”

Trianglaphobia

July 5th, 2009

A man is born with an innate fear of triangles.

Consequently, he only eats square sicilian style pizza.

He must eat them in a clockwise fashion lest the slowly diminishing square pizza suddenly begins to resemble a triangle.

Tacos are too risky.

Impeccable Timing

December 5th, 2008

“It’s hard to be the better man,
when you forget you’re trying.”

Hardly a worthy entry.  I just don’t have anywhere else to let things out right now.